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Life & Death..

my  boyfriend was telling me  about how he thinks his grandmother is dying. I told him I was sorry and he told me not to be. I cant quote him exactly but he said something along the lines of “death is not bad. it stops all of the pain. in a way death is  a blessing” at first i  thought he was a bit morbid, until just now. it just occured to me that  he  is right. my  mom has been in  pain for as long as i can remember. it was always one thing or another. and now the doctors say she has less than five years to live. for a while its been to painful to even think about. she is my bestfriend. i’ve been wishing on everything just to keep her here longer.i’ve even been wishing on my boyfriends fallen eyelashes. i didn’t realize how  selfish i’ve been. i want her to stay here for me. not for her. for me. i need her. but even though  she may look  well on the outside…shes got tumors everywhere. she jokingly tells me how her head hurts in certain spots. but its  not a headache. its the tumors in her head. her whole body hurts. my mother is so strong. shes  been dealing with pain for so long. and since the doctors say shes terminal and they cant do anything…how dare i wish for her to live like this. constantly in pain. i have basically been  wishing for her to live in pain longer. thats just not right.

Well this wont be a problem!

Well this wont be a problem!

Really liked this nail polish

Really liked this nail polish

First attempt at “galaxy nails” theme :)

First attempt at “galaxy nails” theme :)

bought a few tshirts to decorate:)