Life & Death..
my boyfriend was telling me about how he thinks his grandmother is dying. I told him I was sorry and he told me not to be. I cant quote him exactly but he said something along the lines of “death is not bad. it stops all of the pain. in a way death is a blessing” at first i thought he was a bit morbid, until just now. it just occured to me that he is right. my mom has been in pain for as long as i can remember. it was always one thing or another. and now the doctors say she has less than five years to live. for a while its been to painful to even think about. she is my bestfriend. i’ve been wishing on everything just to keep her here longer.i’ve even been wishing on my boyfriends fallen eyelashes. i didn’t realize how selfish i’ve been. i want her to stay here for me. not for her. for me. i need her. but even though she may look well on the outside…shes got tumors everywhere. she jokingly tells me how her head hurts in certain spots. but its not a headache. its the tumors in her head. her whole body hurts. my mother is so strong. shes been dealing with pain for so long. and since the doctors say shes terminal and they cant do anything…how dare i wish for her to live like this. constantly in pain. i have basically been wishing for her to live in pain longer. thats just not right.
Really liked this nail polish
First attempt at “galaxy nails” theme :)